4 stars of my life

From the moment i was brought into this world, i didn't knew a single thing of what is happening in my life. One thing i know is that i do whatever the babies do. I didn't even know who first held me. If it was my father? my mother? I don't know... but whatever it is, i will never forget the warm welcome of the hands which touched my life and loved me for who i am. I call them the stars of my life. :)

I have my eldest sister named Joanne Nathalie Mallary-Abrera. She is a dentist, married to kuya Sef who is also a dentist and now working in the US. My sister has 3 lovable kids, Bianca, Kenneth and the cutie little Athena. What i could remember from my sister when i was just a toddler is that she has a squeeking loud voice whenever there is something to be scared of or if she's going to scold me. I remember the time when ate Joanne faught with ate Monette. I poured a bottle of water into her head when she was sleeping and she pulled my hair for payback. (ahahahahaha!)

Those times with my sister Joanne are a bit disturbing whenever i think of the past, but there are still good times we shared together. I can remember her dancing infront of the mirror and she keeps on telling me to do whatever she is doing. I can also remember her terrible laugh whenever she wanted to scare me. (it is horrible!!!)

Now a days, I finally realized how special my sister can be. Whenever i have problems, she is always there for me to call. If i need support she'll be present to take pictures and help me if i need her artistic ability and I never get to remember the times we joke around like we we're doing right now. All i could reflect are the scolding most of the time. I guess, it takes time to realize things which are deeply hidden from the past. That is why it took me 16 yrs to finally had the chance to say... I LOVE YOU ATE JOANNE!

My 2nd eldest sister is Simonette Amelie Mallary-Espiritu. She is married to kuya Arnold and they both live in New Jersey USA. I don't actually know what their jobs are,but what i know is that ate Monette is my one of a kind sister. She is like my bestfriend. If i need someone to talk to and even though we're miles apart, I just give her my message and she's ready to go online just to talk to me. I knew from the very beginning that she'll be one of the best that my life could ever had.

When it comes to me, she is very flexible. She can be mean, nice, stupid and even make a fool out of herself just to show me that she cares. I will never forget these words... "Huwag mo kami iiwan ha...". Those words will always be mentioned everytime ate Monette and I talk about confidential things.

My sister was a flight stewardess before, and everytime she's going to leave, I will cry. When I was still a kid, I would always ask my mom... "bakit kailangan si ate Monette ang umalis? pwede naman si ate Mem ah..." (ahahahahaha!) Sadness is one of the main ingredients my childhood has back in the days. Ate Monette also has a scary look that i could still remember right now. If she wants to scare me, she use that freaking face which will make me hide under the bed! Even now, i'm still scared. (what a face!)

Even though good times we're most developed between me and my sister Monette, I could remember times when I used to throw things at her and I will shout... "bumalik ka na lang sa Amerika!..." See, not just because she's my one of a kind sister, we don't quarrel together. Everytime I think about family, I just never can picture my life without her.

I may have my sisters but i have one amazing brother! Eugene Ferminito B. Mallary. He is an Engineer in Seattle, USA. He is married to ate Kareen and they have 2 very nice kids, Kyle and Kelvin. When I was little, my brother and I would always fight for a simple or a huge problem. There can never be a day without us fighting.
(amazing isn't it?..)

My brother is an amazing driver. I love it when he drives real fast! and my mom on the other hand will tell him to slow down. (corny ni mama!) Kuya Eugene is also good in painting, sketching, and many more that inloves with pencils, crayons and paint. My big brother is a bully as i was growing up, the more we grew together, the more we faught.

Fighting might be the main ingredient while we were together but, combined forces is also one of them. If there is something to be worked out in terms of teasing, playing or bullying... We'll be there. Kuya will tell me to do this, and that, and this, and that! (ahahaha! amazing!) I can also remember that everytime I woke up and even after eating lunch, wrestling is one of our hobby. Both of us will play wrestling on mama and papa's bed.

Everytime my brother gets drunk, he will always be nice. If i wanted money, he'll give me some. I never have encountered fighting with my brother whenever he's drunk. (wow! amazing!) That is why he is amazing. But, things have changed. Now that he is in US, he will never forget about me. I'm going to college now and he is forcing me to study well. And if I did, I'll have a price from him. I know that he misses me a lot even though he doesn't want say it. Everytime we chat using the internet, if he'll ask me stuffs like... "ok ka lang ba diyan?" "nag-aaral ka bang mabuti?" "nakapagenroll ka na ba? para makuha kita pagka graduate mo ng college." He will most of the time mention that he will get me after college and let me stay with them in Seattle, and i will never forget myself asking him this... "whoo! namimiss mo lang ako noh?!" (ahahaha!) In reply, he will say... "jologs ka!" (ahahaha! amazing!)

Even though the love and care for each other weren't been shown all those years, I know that there is atleast one tiny part of my brother's heart which I could touch whenever I had the chance. I know that because "Kuya! huwag mo ikalila!... kalahati ng ugali ko nakuha ko sayo! jologs ka!... hahahaha!". And, I also know it because many people says that "MAGKAMUKHA SILA MAGKUYA!"... uuuggghhh!... (do we??!!!) Anyway, my brother is amazing! You want an explanation???... read this, ... (WHAPAK!!!)

Speaking of many sisters, I still have one. Charmaigne Mallary-Santiago. She is also married with kuya Jonathan who works in Dubai. I do not know exactly what my sister's occupation is right now. But, they have one very cute little boy Nathaniel, who looks like me!... why? because... "ako pinaglihian!!!" (ahahaha!) This sister of mine while i was growing to be a teenager is a scary big woman!... I can't also remember one time that we haven't faught. Ate Mem is one of the best enemies in the house that i got. (ahahaha!)

When i was still a toddler, I caould remeber her always playing the guitar and piano and my brother Eugene. And there is one song that I could remember her singing, "you say, i only hear what i want to." The song is entitled, Torn. I don't have any idea why it keeps playing in my head everytime i think about a song for ate Mem. (boring! ahaha!)

Whenever my sister will leave, I will have a big smile on my face. :) When she left for Singapore to find work, I cried for joy! (ahahaha!)... Many years have passed and being with her is a one big scary blur! My sister was married with kuya Jonathan, as i could remember is because i asked him... "kuya, kailan ka ba mag popropose kay ate Mem? Ang tagal niyo na mag-on eh...". There, when they got married, she became more gentle on me. But, when she reached the part of her being pregnant... whoa!!! It became a hurricane!

I know that after she'll deliver baby Nathan, the baby will be my carbon copy. For the way she scolds me during her pregnancy is brutal! (kulang nalang palayasin ako eh! ahahaha!) And then, after the delivery, she became nice again. (what a rare mood swing... oh.. ha!... walang ganyan sa states!)

Even though she's our very own "Sungit Queen", she is also a very caring sister. When our mother went in the US to take care of our grandmother, ate Mem was there and stood as my mom while our real mother was gone. And it was horrible! But although it was horrible, it brought me to something rewarding. I was forced to study and study for the dragon lady might blow me with her hot burning breath of fire! (ahahaha!) She's like that alright! It made me learn a lot and I became good in my performance in school. (She is a dragon lady!)

She maybe a dragon shit but hell!... she can be the most caring person you'll ever meet. Whenever i'm sick, she'll be there to comfort me. I remember the time that I almost got a dengue fever and my mother wasnt here, she was there always pampering me and scolding me everytime I forget to drink my medicine. (very nice..) Ate Mem could be really mean sometimes but she is one of the best!!!

So that's why I call them STARS OF MY LIFE... see how they glisten?

They're just like real stars, the ones that shines in the night.

I can see how they became similar.

In the day time you can't see them, because the light of the sun is very bright.

When the moon shines, they sparkle. Every single one gleams through the night.

They're my family and they belong to me.

Because, ever since, I knew that they will always be a part of me.

I thank God for giving me their love.

I thank thee for the blessings you gave us from the heavens above.

Someday I will repay you for all the elegance and beauty of life you brought.

Especially whenever I needed you if there's trouble or when I distraught.

I love you ate Joanne!

I love you ate Monette!

I love you kuya Eugene!
I love you ate Mem!

Lahat ng ito'y ginawa ko para sa inyo. Patawarin sana ako sa lahat ng kalokohan ko.

Pagbubutihin ko ang pag-aaral ko. Gagawin ko din para kay Mama at Papa ito.

Sana maintindihan niyo mga ginagawa ko. Ngunit tandaan niyo, na kahit buhay ko'y isasalba ko para lang sabihin sa inyo na mahal ko kayo. :)

Your loving little sister,

Shanine :D

Together

Titile: Together (Graduation Song)
Composed by: Aixia Mallary



Way back when the days we're still very young
with smiles on our faces, just playing all around.
When you knew its time to cry we're there to wipe away your tears
cause we're always there for each other all throughout these years.


(chorus)
We'll stay together, friends forever, though we'll be apart.
Treasure the times we laughed and cried, and everything will be alright.
One thing I know is that I'll keep you in my heart.


A family is what we are, we've searched for each other near and far.
Growing free, together we'll be soring flying following our dreams.

Even though its time to say goodbye we will still be here for you.
Hoping we'll see each other again, because i know we'll make it through.
(chorus)


(bridge)
We've listened to songs, jamming along, singing together with you.
Whenever you're weak, I'll be there to speak.
Forever, I'm your friend.

(chorus 2x)
(repeat last line for the finale)

My True to Life... to Fantasy Love Story

"My True to Life... to Fantasy Love Story"

I was in grade school when I started to have a boyfriend. I was in fourth grade that time, but those we're just puppy love. Ever since, I didn't have any fear of showing my feelings to the person whom I admire, to think that I am the girl. So that's what's weird about me.
Years passed, I got new boyfriends, some lasted for 9 months, others 3 and others 1 week. And many more came who just brought me sadness and tears by playing with my heart. It was really hurtful having 8 out of 10 people cheating, playing and using my heart.

I planned a reverse action with the others who will court me. I'll accept their love by underestimating them and treating them like girls! Just like what the other guys did to me.
I stayed single for some time and a guy named Alvin Lauchengco came. We became text mates in May 21, 2005, met on May 22, 2005 and I accepted him to be my boyfriend on May 23, 2005. We've been together for almost 3 years in a long distance relationship. I live in Manila and he, on the other hand is most of the time in Laguna. His childhood friend was my choir mate. She's telling me the background of Alvin because I haven't known him for long. She confessed the things which Alvin lied about to me. I was really shocked! I don't know what to do! All I know is that I love him and he loves me.

Few months passed and we're still together, until news from my friend came that he's cheating on me. I didn't want to believe it at first until I found it out myself. Then, we started fighting most of the time. I cried, screamed and even trying to commit suicide but, I figured out that in long distance relationships, you can't always stop the lying and cheating on each other. So, I talked to him asking if maybe we could just be friends.

Some years later, we're not talking to each other anymore, until I graduated college and started my work as a Director/Actress in the Philippines. Another year later I went to a business work in L.A. There, I'm working with performers like me in theatres.

It was December 17, 2013 in Bristol Hillman Music Conservatory when we were practicing for a very big event for February. I was one of the lead characters in the play. I was paired with one of my co-performer named Johan Alonzo who's a very good singer, dancer, instrument player and actor. I didn't like him because he is boastful and he's always fighting with me because we have the same interests in life. Many people say that we're a perfect match, but I said "no way!" We may have the same perceptions and interests in life, but we are very different people.

Days pass, we we're always fighting during the practices and our director is always getting mad at us. Then we actually got a suspension to clean up our act. Our director was German and he is very strict. He assigned both of us to go on a week trip to the starving kids in New York. In the plane, both of us we're very noisy with me saying, "This is all your fault! I'm suppose to be rehersing right now, but you.. you ruined everything!" and he replied, "Me!? you're always shouting at me! You talk to much!" and the fighting continues.

We arrived in New york and went to the Hotel where we're supposed to stay. We were surprised because the room has only one bed. And so, as Johan being the guy and is fast compare with me, he ran going to the bed and saying, "This is my place!". He started to annoy me again so i didn't bother to fight with him. I went into the couch and placed my things near the window and hit the showers. Johan was completely questioned with what i was doing because i didn't faught with him. I went out, ready for bed, he was still wondering why i was acting like that. I sat on the couch and pray that he might change his attitude and I started to lay down. He looked at me feeling bad about what he did and went to go freshing up. I was already asleep when he whispered in my ear, "i'm sorry".

Early morning an alarm rang, it was irritating so i got up and heard it coming from the small dining room. I went inside and saw food on the table with a note saying, "Goodmorning! I prepared breakfast, thinking if you might get hungry." with his name on the bottom part of the note. I smiled sarcasticly thinking of it as a joke.

So, I went alone going to the seminar. The people in charge told me to go to the field because the children we're there. And so, I did and surprisingly the kids shouted, "I'm sorry!" and Johan went out with a funny entrance, dancing around wearing tootoo's and ballet shoes. I forgive him, and i asked for forgiveness too. And that's where the fun and bonding began. We took care of the children together with the other volunteers.

We went back to L.A. with our minds clear. Practices again went on and on and the bonding became stronger. Sparkles of heart beat is being felt everywhere. Feb. 14, 2014, the play was succesful, the group had a big celebration at the directors house. It was really fun having the group playing jokes, dancing and singing around. I was in the terrace when Johan started saying something on the microphone, "These past few months was a bit annoying. I was even given a suspension! It was really irritating to have a person sitting by you who keeps on shouting with absolutely have a piontless direction." the people was laughing and looking at me. So, I started being angry in a silent manner trying to listen to what else he has to say. Then suddenly, i was surprised when he said while looking at me straight in the eye, "But, i never thought of knowing her like this. I feel like i was chosen, chosen to find a key through a door that was never been opened. I found a person who became my inspiration, who i felt my heart first beated like this." I was very strucked on what he said. My eyes felt its tears coming out and it did when he sang... "have i told you lately"

At that moment my heart fell from heaven, he walked right through me and saying, "I LOVE YOU, WITH ALL MY MIND, ALL MY HEART AND ALL MY SOUL......." and we all laughed when he added, "....SO HELP ME GOD" but he continued to say "I LOVE YOU".
We spend time together for another year in L.A. having fun. Until, it was time for me to go back in the Philippines. He drove me to the airport and when i was about to go, he cried, "We'll still see each other, ok." and i replied crying, "yes." We hugged and kissed and said our loving goodbye's. I watched him as he went in the car and drove forward. I didn't anymore looked back when I heard his voice shouting, "Shanine!" and i saw him ran to me and hugged me while his eyes are in tears, but we we're forced to leave each other for the plane is boarding.

Back in the Philippines was a warm welcome back by my family, friends and relatives. We started the stories and they we're willing to meet Johan. 2 months later, I answered a phone call, it was Johan. He said to meet him in Butterfly Spring because he'll be coming in the Philippines for a surprise.
So, I told my family, friends and relatives and they're all exited.

Feb. 24, 2015, I went in Butterfly Springs a beautiful restaurant near the airport. I was asked to be there at 8pm, i got there 6:50. So, i waited very exited and somehow nervous, and the nervousness is beginning to conquer everything. Then suddenly, i felt something. It was striking, my heart felt weird and I feel like I'm going to faint. My heart beated so loud and wondering what is happening. I stayed for hours in the Butterfly Springs waiting for him, when my phone rang and our friend was asking me where i am. I said the location and he said to wait for him there. I waited until he came. He hugged me and he started to cry and i asked, "Whats wrong?" and he showed me a beautiful box where rings are being placed. I asked again, "What's this?" and he said, "Johan asked me to take care of this and asked me to prepare this place for a very speial evening which you'll surely treasure." It began to make me smile and i asked, "where is he?" he paused for some moments and said, "he's gone.........." I didn't know what he meant but it made me wonder and my eyes started to fall its tears.

My tears fell on the box while i was holding it. I opened the box and saw a small gold key, and I started to cry hard and fell on my knees. At that very moment i felt what love is.
My friend says that Johan was about to propose to me that night when his plane crash. Everything felt different, and I couldn't sleep. My family and friends comforted me and i felt so loved. I met Johan's family who also comforted me.

When one night i fell asleep and i dreamed of a very beautiful place. I saw candles in lined in a form of an aisle and white roses falling everywhere. I looked around and saw a group of people singing beautifully the song, "This I Promise You". And I continued looking around and saw white balloons rose into the skies with a banner saying, I LOVE YOU. And i began to cry and from far away someone was coming and I saw Johan, he came to me, giving me the key and saying, "Let me be the one to open your heart remember that I'll always be with you. I will love you, always and forever. This I promise you."

I woke up with a promise in my heart, a promise which will remain as a beautiful memory in me until eternity.

The Band "PIONEERS"

The "Pioneers" is an all girl band which is composed of 7 members, the vocalist, guitarist, bassist, pianist, kajon player or the drummer, violinist and not to mention, the 2nd voice and the rain maker holder.Each member of the band have their passion for music, and everyone has their own unique ability to make music. The band doesn't have a certain genre, because it is known for being diverse. It can be rock, metal rock, acoustic, classic, rnb, mellow or even hiphop and many more.

History:

It all started when the CHSM highschool Council of Leaders are preparing for a post halloween party, a first ever halloween celebration of the 1st highschool batch in 20th century. It was the 4th year students who are always complaining about not having any events in the school. So the COL officers made a decision to have a post halloween celebration "We scare because we care" (monsters inc.). The program does contains a lot of competitions, and one of them is the band competition. It is a battle among first year-4th year students. Every year level is required to have a band representative with a minimum of 4 and a maximum of 7 members and were asked to play 2 songs, one is a required song which is "OO by Up dharma down" and the other is the band's chosen song.

And so, the 4th years students only have 2 sections, Fortitude and Knowledge. The 4th yr. Fortitude only has 3 members willing to compete... Dowee, Aixia and Jazz and Knowledge have Mel, Gwen and Faith. Since the 2 sections only have 3 members every band, the 4th yr. students decided to combine and work together as one band. Some students were added to form a better music and the problem started. 7 is the maximum number of members, we were 9, but it all worked out because Mel is the the president of the COL, she is needed to organize everything that time. The band has then have 8 members to compete for the battle... Aixia, Dowee, Jazz, Isay, Faith, Gwen, Genie and Christine.

The battle requires the bands to have their own band names. So the 4th yr. thought of a name which connects them to each other, a name that'll be a part of their lives for a very long time. They even wonder what bonds them together besides music even though they have a lot of differences. And then, they came up with a name that they know they shared for some time, and will treasure their friendship for all times. That is how they got their band name, the "PIONEERS".

And so, the practicing went on until the songs were so ready to play! It didn't bother that the band was consist of 8 members even though it must only have 7. It was November 7, 2007 5pm, when the post halloween celebration began and everyone was dressed in their halloween costume. When the hostess said to stand by because the next competition is the battle of the bands, every band from every year level went out and they were all looking like rockstars (rockerzz pare, stigz!) exept for the Pioneers, they were wearing their halloween costumes.
So the battle started, the first to perform are from the 1st year followed by the 2nd year and 3rd year, and each section has a band representative exept for the 4th year students. It all seemed like the lower batch doesn't know the song OO by Up dharma down because they turned it into rock version which they need not to do because its not a remake. The bands were good actually, and luckily the Pioneers know the song of the Up dharma down perfectly; and the other song the Pioneers played was What can i do by the Corrs.

The songs were good and the band was great... The Pioneers won! After that, the lower batch complained about the Pioneers having 8 members and proudly the teacher answered that "It is not in the amount of population, its in the amount of population that makes the music great." The band was so happy that time and it even made them very happy when the found out that the College Dept. knew about it, and they were inviting the band to play for the intermission number during the College Global Warming Seminar. They were proud and thankful of the band playing that time although, it is not yet their very best.:)

After some time, a text message received by the vocalist saying, "This is ate carla, President of the College Dept. I introduced your band to my friend at studio 23, they will help you promote your band on behalf of our school." It was really shocking.. and so she replied, "Thanks ate carla! I can't wait to tell my bandmates!" And so she did, and evryone was shocked and willing to play exept for one, Faith. She said it not what she wants... "Kayo nalang.." She said that she'll concentrate on broadcasting. The band members respected her decision, and it all worked out.

The Pioneers were asked to be a part in the Spirit Ablaze Bandfest Showdown on Feb. 2, 2008. It was really exiting to the band that they practiced remaking songs because the theme is "Their Song, Our Style: The Best Remake" not knowing that it will be plugged in Magic 89.9 live! and also, for them being the only highschool students who will be joining and the rest were all colleges and outsiders. Some are from ADMU, UE, Assumption, San Beda and many more. When the band heard about that, it shocked them a lot and causes them to practiced much harder. The showdown was a "People's Choice Award" so the band need to gain the highschool depts. support. No doubt that the 4thyr. students will support the band and the PRC (members of the board in the HS dept.). And so, they endorsed their band in every section in the highschool dept. and fortunately was succesful.

Then, 2 weeks before the bandfest, the Pioneers heard some news that there were other bands who will be joining from their highschool department. Honestly, they were shocked, but it remained as a more challenging situation to them. Feb. 2, 2008, the bandfest began. It was right! all of them are college students and again... most of them are rockers!!! Amazing! The rocking never ends! Only 2 bands weren't doing the rocking, a band with 3 members and the Pioneers! It seemed really quiet in the audience even though it very noisy. The Pioneers were the 7th competitors and when the Pioneers went out and the auditorium was full, you will hear almost everyone screaming for the Pioneers as they were fixing their instruments! The guest was Kitkat from ABS-CBN, a comedian/actress. Others can't barely hear her because of the screaming. It was good. She is funny! She also the one who introduced the Pioneers! They played Hate that I Love You So by Rihanna ft. Ne-yo in Raggae version and they created a Medley for the second song.

The performance was a complete success! Everyone was screaming for the Pioneers, the teachers, highschool and college students stood up to dance on the sides of the auditorium. The Pioneers has the most unique style in the bandfest, and was known as the "Most Admired Band". (that means... Pioneers won!) After the performance of the Pioneers, the people in the auditorium went out and that was left was maybe 20 people, to think that the bandfest is not yet over! Pioneers are only the 7th competitors but there are 8 competitors left to perform. Everyone went out to congratulate the Pioneers and some went to to next one which is the band concert.

The band fixed their intruments and ready to go home because they were tired when suddenly, ate carla came to congratulate the Pioneers and saying, "Could you perform in the band concert together with the other front act bands and the major bands?". Whoa! A big surprise to play with the front act band and the major bands!!! The front act band was a boy band with really good music. And the major bands are Chicosi, Join the Club and K24/7. At that moment we get to play as one of the front act bands! But, because of the people leaving the auditorium during the bandfest with 8 bands left to perform, they still gave an opportunity to the bands to play during the band concert. Not all get to play, because the time is running out for the front act bands and major bands to perform which they need to because the school paid them.

Unfortunately, the Pioneers weren't able to play that night. But, the day after that night came the shocking news! "You'll play in HHS as one of the front act bands!"-teacher "Would you like to play the front act band?"-Union Motors "Can you give us a record of your own composition?"-MTV "Can you play during the ALL STARS? you're the only band who'll be playing."-ate carla "huy, ako manager niyo ah!"-Mel "Ayan na, ako na manager niyo! Ako naghahanap ng mga gig niyo."-Mr. Ulaye.

So, that's how the Pioneers started... and I'm proud to say that I am one of the Pioneers. I am Aixia, the Vocalist. We're only graduating highschool students of 07-08. After that, it will be the time to plan on whats going to happend to the Pioneer Band.